Dear Diary..

Yesterday, thanks to you lovely readers, I felt inspired to go for my “normal Wednesday” run.  Even though it was super hot outside, at 6 p.m., it felt so good to do my run!  Now the trick will be getting up early tomorrow morning to do my 45 minute Friday run.  And even trickier on Saturday to get up and do my 8 mile run.  But let’s take this one day at a time, shall we?

This morning, after I dropped D off at school and was showered with good-bye hugs and kisses, I made my way to Starbucks.  I decided that since I felt so much better yesterday morning, after my hour long Starbucks visit, I should go ahead and do that again today.  No, I should not be spending money on frivolous things like coffee.  Except, I decided I’m not going to look at it as spending $2.78 on coffee, instead, I spent $2.78 on my mental health!  That 1 hour at Starbucks yesterday somehow motivated me to come home and take care of some stuff I’ve seriously neglected.  I blogged, applied for some jobs, did some laundry, started dinner, did homework with D, finished preparing dinner, and got my run done.  I’d say $2.78 was worth it!

Today I went to Starbucks with my journal.


Yes, I’m a grown woman with a cartoon character on my journal.  It’s what makes me…me!

Prior to today, my last attempt to write in my journal was May 12, 2012.  All that I wrote on that date was..the date.  Nice work!  So I had a lot of catching up to do.  A lot has happened this summer: J graduated and moved to Ohio, D went on her first solo trip, I lost my job…

I’ve been journaling (new word, I just made it up) consistently since January 1, 1994.  It has always been an outlet for me, much like running has become. It is a way to make sense of the world happening around me.  Or a way to vent without burdening another person.  Here are some good reasons for keeping a journal:

  • Clarify your thoughts and feelings. Do you ever seem all jumbled up inside, unsure of what you want or feel? Taking a few minutes to jot down your thoughts and emotions (no editing!) will quickly get you in touch with your internal world.
  • Know yourself better. By writing routinely you will get to know what makes you feel happy and confident. You will also become clear about situations and people who are toxic for you — important information for your emotional well-being.
  • Reduce stress. Writing about anger, sadness and other painful emotions helps to release the intensity of these feelings. By doing so you will feel calmer and better able to stay in the present.
  • Solve problems more effectively. Typically we problem solve from a left-brained, analytical perspective. But sometimes the answer can only be found by engaging right-brained creativity and intuition. Writing unlocks these other capabilities, and affords the opportunity for unexpected solutions to seemingly unsolvable problems.
  • Resolve disagreements with others. Writing about misunderstandings rather than stewing over them will help you to understand another’s point of view. And you just may come up with a sensible resolution to the conflict


It’s also nice for having my journals for historical purposes.  There have been times I’ve had to refer to my journal to determine when a certain event took place.  There have also been times where I’ve read through past journals and learned of my own growth and development.

I can write in my journal what I cannot say out loud and that is so freeing because it gets the words out of my head and clears my mind.

I wrote 10 pages today…man, I had a LOT to get out of my head.  And I feel SO much better now that the words are out of my head and in my journal!  It’s important to remember that mental health is just as important as physical health!

BTW, just so you know, I don’t start my journal entries with “Dear Diary…” that would be way sillier than being a 37 year old woman showing up to Starbucks with a journal that has Jessie from Toy Story on the cover!

Oh!  One last thing.  Since it’s “weigh in Thursday”.  Today’s weight was 173.2  I lost .6 from last week but I’ll take it!

Do you keep a journal?

What do you order at Starbucks/the coffee shop?

Hello 60!

Yesterday D and I went to the produce market to buy some cherries (99 cents a pound, thank you very much!) and while we were there I discovered the market is now carrying the Vega brand!  I’ve been wanting to find a gel that is healthier so have been wanting to try these!!

I’ve read good things..can’t wait to try them out!

Today I had a very important interview for a job you might describe as my “dream job”!

How’d it go?  Honestly..I feel like I blew it.  I got so nervous and felt like I was having an out-of-body experience and wanted to slap myself!

D and I went for her 3rd run of the week following the same routine we did on Tuesday!

When we came within view of the park, D was super excited to see the sprinklers were on.  You would think that would have inspired her to run/walk faster to get to them but it didn’t.  As soon as we were much closer to the sprinklers, she took off

She did a couple of laps through the coolness!

That kept her somewhat happy for the next 10 minutes of our training but just like Tuesday, on the final round of the run/walk segments, she started to whine, whimper, and confess her “hate” of running!   We did 1.77 miles in 27:41 minutes.  She’s getting slower but it is hot outside.

We finally made it home and she felt fine enough to pose with me for an “after” picture!

In other news…I weighed in this morning!  Last Thursday I weighed in at 175.  Today..173.8! I have lost a total of 21.2 pounds since 12/08/11!

More great news, today marked the 60th day of consecutive running!  #RWStreakExtreme, a continuation of #RWRunStreak – going strong!

Have you tried the Vega Endurance Gel?

How many pounds of cherries have you eaten this summer?  (I think I’m up to 6!)

Do you ever cry while running?

A Message From my Fat Pants…

The Monday after a 5 day weekend is always pretty rough.

It’s even rougher when the zipper to your comfy pants busts 2 hours in to your work day!

I keep a lot of “in case of emergency” items in my desk drawers at work but “pants” aren’t one of them!

Then I got to thinking about this issue. It’s not like my zipper busted because my belly is pushing it to it’s limit.  It’s actually quite the opposite.

I’m at the stage that my fat pants are “too big” for me but I’m not made out of money so I haven’t wanted to invest in more pants.  I was trying to hold out until I could skip from my “fat pants” back to my “skinny pants”.   I didn’t care that the bottom of my fat pants were dragging on the floor as I walked, I thought it was a great reminder that I’m making progress.

I have hated shopping for years now.  Hate it with a passion!!!  I hate trying on clothes but it’s an absolute must if I’m buying something because I’m so oddly shaped so I just avoid buying clothes until I absolutely have to!  I am small in the waist and then I have these huge…what do you call them, hips?  saddlebags?  butt?  All of the above?  Either way, it’s really hard to find pants that fit me!

Which is why I have hung on to these babies!

My sentiments exactly…..the “ideal fit”.  They (used to) fit great!

Wanna know what has happened in the past when I get to the stage that my fat pants are too big but my skinny pants are way too small?

I stop paying attention to my food choices and fitness and throw in the towel.  In the past, that’s been easier than shopping for new pants!

More truths…these Dockers aren’t the only “fat pants” in my closet that have been trying to call it quits.  Truth is, I look a little ridiculous at work wearing these oversized pants!

So what am I going to do?  I thought about this long and hard today.

I’ve decided on the following:

  • I’m not quitting – I’m tired of this yo-yo game I’ve been playing!
  • I’m throwing these pants away instead of begging my friend to try and fix them for me!
  • I’m going suck it up and go buy a new pair of pants (maybe even 2)!  Instead of crying in the dressing room or rushing home and not speaking to K for the rest of the day because I’m so disgusted I can’t fit in to a pair of pants, I’m going to celebrate what I have accomplished this far and appreciate that I am going to take it even further!

I think it’s exactly what my old fat pants would want me to do!

Are you attached to a clothing item you’ve outgrown (for better or worse)?

Do you like to shop?

Have you ever been stuck at work with an embarrassing blow out like a busted zipper?  Tell me (us) about it!