Do I Dare to Run??

I missed my chiro appointment on Friday because I had to work late.  So I do not have doctor’s clearance to run.

But…I’m thinking of going for a 3 mile run in the morning.  I vow to do the following:

  • Run’ll be more of what I call a “runner’s shuffle”.
  • Head home the moment I feel any kind of pain.

I just gotta get back out there and run again.  The bike lane is calling my name – it misses me and I miss it!

Due to my extremely hectic work schedule this past week, I didn’t do any of the workouts I had planned to do.  Lesson learned…the last week of the month will require morning workouts – whether I like it or not.

Do you think I’m crazy to attempt a small run without doctor’s “okay”?


Dear Diary..

Yesterday, thanks to you lovely readers, I felt inspired to go for my “normal Wednesday” run.  Even though it was super hot outside, at 6 p.m., it felt so good to do my run!  Now the trick will be getting up early tomorrow morning to do my 45 minute Friday run.  And even trickier on Saturday to get up and do my 8 mile run.  But let’s take this one day at a time, shall we?

This morning, after I dropped D off at school and was showered with good-bye hugs and kisses, I made my way to Starbucks.  I decided that since I felt so much better yesterday morning, after my hour long Starbucks visit, I should go ahead and do that again today.  No, I should not be spending money on frivolous things like coffee.  Except, I decided I’m not going to look at it as spending $2.78 on coffee, instead, I spent $2.78 on my mental health!  That 1 hour at Starbucks yesterday somehow motivated me to come home and take care of some stuff I’ve seriously neglected.  I blogged, applied for some jobs, did some laundry, started dinner, did homework with D, finished preparing dinner, and got my run done.  I’d say $2.78 was worth it!

Today I went to Starbucks with my journal.


Yes, I’m a grown woman with a cartoon character on my journal.  It’s what makes me…me!

Prior to today, my last attempt to write in my journal was May 12, 2012.  All that I wrote on that date was..the date.  Nice work!  So I had a lot of catching up to do.  A lot has happened this summer: J graduated and moved to Ohio, D went on her first solo trip, I lost my job…

I’ve been journaling (new word, I just made it up) consistently since January 1, 1994.  It has always been an outlet for me, much like running has become. It is a way to make sense of the world happening around me.  Or a way to vent without burdening another person.  Here are some good reasons for keeping a journal:

  • Clarify your thoughts and feelings. Do you ever seem all jumbled up inside, unsure of what you want or feel? Taking a few minutes to jot down your thoughts and emotions (no editing!) will quickly get you in touch with your internal world.
  • Know yourself better. By writing routinely you will get to know what makes you feel happy and confident. You will also become clear about situations and people who are toxic for you — important information for your emotional well-being.
  • Reduce stress. Writing about anger, sadness and other painful emotions helps to release the intensity of these feelings. By doing so you will feel calmer and better able to stay in the present.
  • Solve problems more effectively. Typically we problem solve from a left-brained, analytical perspective. But sometimes the answer can only be found by engaging right-brained creativity and intuition. Writing unlocks these other capabilities, and affords the opportunity for unexpected solutions to seemingly unsolvable problems.
  • Resolve disagreements with others. Writing about misunderstandings rather than stewing over them will help you to understand another’s point of view. And you just may come up with a sensible resolution to the conflict


It’s also nice for having my journals for historical purposes.  There have been times I’ve had to refer to my journal to determine when a certain event took place.  There have also been times where I’ve read through past journals and learned of my own growth and development.

I can write in my journal what I cannot say out loud and that is so freeing because it gets the words out of my head and clears my mind.

I wrote 10 pages today…man, I had a LOT to get out of my head.  And I feel SO much better now that the words are out of my head and in my journal!  It’s important to remember that mental health is just as important as physical health!

BTW, just so you know, I don’t start my journal entries with “Dear Diary…” that would be way sillier than being a 37 year old woman showing up to Starbucks with a journal that has Jessie from Toy Story on the cover!

Oh!  One last thing.  Since it’s “weigh in Thursday”.  Today’s weight was 173.2  I lost .6 from last week but I’ll take it!

Do you keep a journal?

What do you order at Starbucks/the coffee shop?

Humidity, Rain and 13 Miles…Oh My!

When the alarm sounded at 4:33 am, I hit snooze.  I really did not want to get up.  When it sounded again, I got up and dragged my butt to get ready for my 13 mile training run. I really did not want to do it.  As I checked Twitter, I saw that Melissa @ Run Scoots Run had just Tweeted she completed “7 hilly miles at a 7:45 pace”.  That’s flippin’ insane – insanely awesome!!!!  So I Tweeted her congratulations and she responded and wished me luck on my run.  Well, damnit, now I really have to get out to my run – someone is watching me!  (Thanks, Melissa, for that encouragement, it really did help get me out the door this AM!)

I checked the weather forecast yesterday and it said it would be about 81* from 5 am to 8 am – that’s plenty of time for me to run 13 miles!  When I opened the front door and walked outside, I nearly burst in to tears!  Holy Humidity, Batman!!!!  It may have been in the 80’s but it was muggy as hell and NOT pleasant!!!  Ugh..

I parked at the gym as a back-up plan. The gym didn’t open until 7 am and it was almost 5:30.  I knew I would run out of water during the run so I had a gallon of water in the car.  My plan was to run for an hour, retrace back to the car, refill my water bottles and assess what to do from there.

As I headed out, this was my reward for getting up so flippin’ early!

Gorgeous, right?  No complaints about that!

After 2 miles or so, the sunrise looked like this!

Not as gorgeous as the first picture but definitely pretty.  Those clouds were certainly a welcome sight!  I thought, “Oh Clouds, Protectors from the Sun Beating Down on Me!!!”

So here it is: just me, my iPod, Garmin watch, 13 miles in front of me and nothing but time to think!

  • The humidity must affect the dairy farm because duuhhhammnnnnn those cows stink something fierce today – I wonder if I can get sick from the gas fumes that place is putting off..Wow!
  • This humidity is no joke, I feel like my face is melting..I hate humidity so bad!!
  • Bikers are so lucky in that they don’t have to get up at the butt crack of dawn!  So many runners out this AM and not a single biker yet.  These runners must have read the same weather report I did – wonder if they caught the humidity part?
  • Ahh..there’s a biker – a friendly biker waving back and saying, “Good morning!”
  • So jealous of all the guys getting to run with no shirts on, this shirt is seriously sticking to me.
  • I think it’s raining…
  • Is that rain dripping from my hands or sweat?
  • Awww…this rain with that breeze is making things a little bit cooler…if you can use the word “cooler” in a sentence when running  outdoors in Phoenix!
  • I’m getting soaked in this rain..that’s going to bring new meaning to “wet, white t-shirt contest”.  Maybe I shouldn’t have worn a white shirt!
  • Am I the only runner that seriously gags when taking a Gu?  And why is that there’s always someone around to watch me gag on the Gu?!?  So flippin’ nasty but so necessary!
  • I’m in trouble..more than 2 miles away from my car and already out of water.
  • I wonder what kind of diseases I’d get if I refilled my water bottle from the canal…I bet I’d get the sh&%’s more than anything..that won’t help me finish these miles!
  • I hope there’s no lightening…I can just see it now, “Runner zapped by lightening, falls in canal and drowns”.

I got back to my car and my watch said this:

I refilled my water, drank some Nuun, and contemplated if I was going to finish the remaining 4.27 miles outside or go in to the gym.  The humidity was killing me, my pace was slowing, and I was worried that if I stayed outside I might get I took it to the gym!

Walking in to the gym, I was worried about the fact that I was wet from head to toe and wearing a white running shirt.  But running in the AC sounded a whole lot better than finishing outside so I just dealt with it.

I didn’t have too many thoughts on the running track because I just zoned out and lost myself in the lyrics of the songs playing in my headphones. I really hate running on that track so very much that if I think about it, I will lose my mind.  Fortunately, for me, the gym was void of teenagers and nobody was in my way!  I do recall around mile 10 thinking that I wanted eggs for breakfast – random – as I normally want yogurt after a run!

After I finished running, I did all my stretches and let a couple of tears flow. I don’t know why I get so emotional after some of these long runs.

We didn’t have eggs at home so I stopped at the grocery store.  The store was FREEZING and did not bode well with my completely soaked white running shirt.  Needless to say, I got quite a few stares from the fella’s in there as I tried to keep my shirt pulled away from my body!

I always read runners boasting about how awesome chocolate milk is for you after a run so I picked up a bottle. I chose the “no sugar added” but worried it would taste gross.  I worried for nothing – it was awesome!

I got home and D greeted me at the door, wanting to know where I’d gone.  I thought my attire made that obvious but..who knows!  I made breakfast for the two of  us since K was still sleeping!

Awww..I was starting to feel human again!!!

Of the 6 half marathons I’ve run, my fastest (using the word “fast” loosely) time was 2:59.


Can’t wait to see what that means for my Disneyland half marathon!!

My right hip is really achy and hurts when I go from sitting to walking – any tips to stretch it out?

Have you started drinking your water today?

What are you doing this weekend?

Totally Terrific Tuesday!!

I wore a pair of “work pants” today that I haven’t worn in probably 5 years.  Yeah, that felt good – until I sat down and then they were digging in to my waist.  But the zipper worked so that’s a step ahead of yesterday’s game!

Early this morning a pop-up calendar reminder that the Disney Princess Half Marathon registration was opened jumped up on my screen. I stared at the pop-up for a minute before hitting “dismiss”.  I’m already signed up for Tinker Bell Half Marathon (which is 94% full now so if you’re on the fence about registering, better hurry and decide!) in January 2013 so I didn’t bother to ask K if I could go ahead and register for Princess – I figured that would be pressing my luck!

Then I see this Tweet by runDisney!

Really!?!  Are you kidding me?!  It’s like they knew I’d hit “dismiss” on my reminder and then taunted me with “special medal” because they just know…because they’re somehow in my brain…that I am addicted to bling..and Disney!  It’s true!!  I love bling so much that M made me the bestest Christmas present this past year!

I love adding bling to it!!!

I told M about the runDisney Tweet and she likened it to someone waving drugs under the nose of a junkie – she totally gets me!   She also totally gets that you combine 3 things I really love Disney, Races, and Bling and you have my full and complete attention!  It’s so awesome when someone enables gets you!  *wink*

So then I whined on Facebook and Twitter that I really wanted to do this race and wah wah wah…

Here’s something you should know about me, if you don’t already, once I determine there’s a race I want to do…I have a very hard time convincing myself to not do it.   I love races…I love bling…I love to run = It’s my drug!

And if that wasn’t exciting enough…

I got email confirmation today that I’ve been selected to be a FitFluential Ambassador!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I’m really, really excited about that.

So between the Princess Half Marathon registration, FitFluential Ambassador email notification, getting creamed at the Total Body Conditioning class (good news: I’m able to keep up with the class a lot more), and the 1 mile run using my jellified legs…I’m flippin’ wiped out!!!!

By the way, that’s 44 days of running, in case you’re not keeping count..I am!

One more thing before I go, I just wanna give a major shout out to my husband, K!  He really is so amazing and has been so supportive of my running. I know I couldn’t have come this far without his encouragement and support and it really makes a big difference.  I think any runner knows that it is so important to have a great support system.  I have that in K and both of my kids.  They’re awesome but K especially since he normally gives the green light when I set my sights on a race!  I love you, babe!  You’re amazing!

Did you run today?

Have you run the Princess Half Marathon before?

Are you running the Princess Half Marathon in 2013?

Random Thoughts During Today’s 30 minute Run…6.22.12

Normally I run for 45 minutes on a Friday but I have a hot date with K, D and my seester tonight.  We’re gonna see “Brave” and have dinner.  My seester leaves for home tomorrow and D is flying out to spend 2 weeks with my aunt.  Say what?  K and I are going to be child-free for 2 whole weeks?  What ever will we do?!


Here are the random thoughts inspired by today’s run:

  • Holy bright yellow and red tie dye shirt, dude!! “I run if zombies are chasing me.”  (back of his shirt.)  Interesting…
  • Is that lady conducting business while she rides the bike?  She’s got her papers and hi-lighter and cell phone glued to her ear.  Whatever it takes..
  • That guy is looking at me funny.  I wonder if he saw my blog last night.  This is awkward. I feel naked.
  • Seriously, Jac..that dude did not see your blog..paranoid, much?
  • I have so much to do tonight…I hope I get enough rest I can go on my 10 mile run tomorrow.
  • I wonder what K and I should do our first night of kidless freedom?!  I should get some homework done before we do anything so I don’t leave it all for Sunday.
  • I can’t wait to see Brave…I love the voice of the main character.  And I’m all about girl power.
  • Mad props to that guy right there!!!  Was totally in  my way, he acknowledged it and apologized.  I’d hug ya, dude, if I wasn’t running and sweating.
  • It’s nice that the gym put up some longer barriers to indicate to these morons that they shouldn’t walk on the track.
  • Oh…the moron I always come face-to-face with is here.  And naturally, he’s walking in my direction at a snails pace, him going in the wrong direction.  One day, moron dude, you and I will have words.
  • I think it’s interesting how empty the gym is on a Friday night.  Teenagers can’t get their workout on on a Friday?
  • 1..2..3..4…5…5 dudes texting instead of lifting.  Maybe they’re setting up their hookups for tonight..I bet that’s it.
  • Maybe I should push this to 45 minutes..what’s another 15 minutes?
  • Okay..did you forget that you have so much you need to do tonight. Let’s get to a 5k and be done.

Ran 3.21 miles in 32:52 minutes.

Are you going to see Brave this weekend?

What should K and I do on our first night of freedom from the kids?

What plans do you have this weekend?


Just Call Me Rocky…and Next Week’s Goals

Day 25 of the Runner’s World Summer Running Streak and I ran 1.07 miles.  13 more days to go!! I can totally do this!

When I got home from my run, I got this present from K!

I love Disney!!  I love purple.  I love my iPhone. I love K!  I think I should get presents every time I come home from a run, don’t you?

I did pretty good with last week’s goals:

  1. Track my food.  This is a total work in progress for me.  Some days I’m good about it, some days I’m not.  It’s not that I don’t track because I ate poorly. I don’t eat poorly at all.  I’m not 100% about tracking my food but I’m gonna keep trying!
  2. Don’t stress about school.  Week 1 of my class is finished.  I think I did pretty good about not stressing.
  3. Run 9 miles Saturday or Sunday. I ran 9 miles Saturday.  Bam!
What do I want to accomplish next week?  
First let me share with you a decision I made today.  *gulp*  I canceled my membership with Weight Watchers.  I gave a lot of thought as to what I was getting out of the program.  I concluded it was accountability.  Then I thought it over some more and further concluded that since I started this blog, I feel I’ve been more accountable by putting my weekly goals out there for the “world” to see.  It’s true!  There have been times I’ve gone to get a beer from the fridge but remembered I blogged I wouldn’t drink alcohol on a work night so I put the beer back!   This blog is really helping me stick to a lot of the things I have decided I really want for myself: health, nutrition, fitness and weight loss.
Additionally I decided that I’m just going to get really real.  *double gulp* The truth is, I have a half marathon September 2, 2012 and I don’t want to look like this when I run it!
I want to look fitter!  I want there to be a noticeable difference between my 2011 race photos and my 2012 race photos!  That’s what I want!
*triple gulp*  So I’ve decided doing…what I’m about to do…is going to help me reach my goals!
As of today, I weigh 178.2 pounds.  At my physical in October 2011, the doctor advised me to get my weight to 160.  My current weight loss goal is to reach 160 and then reassess where I want to go from there!  When I “officially” started my weight loss journey in December 2011, I weighed 195.
*heavy sigh*  
Next week’s goals:
  1. Find an app to help me track my food and start using it.  I’m thinking of downloading the Livestrong app!
  2. Keep running.  I’ve struggled with the feelings of not wanting to run and I don’t want to give up on this challenge.
  3. Come back here next Thursday and post my weigh in weight.  I have been nervous all day with my plan to post these photos and my weight.  I don’t want to chicken out next week providing an update.  Good or bad, I want to come back here and report it.

With that done and over with, I’m ready to return to the gym tomorrow for my 45 minute run!  I have some new running gear…what do you think?

My name is Jac but you can just call me Rocky!!!

The Weekend Situation..including Father’s Day!

I’ve been sitting here this afternoon feeling exhausted and now that I’m starting to reflect back on the weekend…it’s no wonder!

I was up at 5 am on Saturday to do my long run outside. I really didn’t want to try and attempt running 9 miles on an indoor track.  As soon as I was home from my run – you know, after I recovered and blogged – we went to a birthday party for a very special 4 year old!

We had a great time at the party catching up with friends and lovin’ on our favorite 4 year old!  We spent a good 3 hours outside in the heat and boy was it hot!!!  K succumbed to peer pressure and went down the inflatable water slide with D!

Loved that I was able to capture this moment, it’s priceless!

After the party, we came home and I worked on some homework while K ran in to work for a couple of hours.  Later D and I met up with my seester (still in town visiting from Boston) to shop for some Father’s Day presents.

Dinner was had by all at Kona Grill.  I wasn’t feeling well after my long run and afternoon in the sun at the birthday party so I wanted something light and easy. I chose the Philadelphia Roll – yum!

And a Four Peaks Kilt Lifter – or two!!!

K had the Spicy Salmon roll, I stole a piece and it was pretty good!

Ended the evening getting hugs by my Pro Compression marathon socks!

And exchanging texts with some really hammered friends visiting Vegas.  I was also drinking a couple of these new-to-me beers!

(I didn’t care for this beer too much, it had a weird after taste – too flowery for me.  But it boasted 9% alcohol content per bottle so if you pick these up – watch out!!)

Today is Father’s Day…in case you didn’t know.  I was up around 9 am but needed to do a couple hours of homework before we did too much.  Since K was in a lazy state of mind, he was fine with me getting the homework out of the way.  After two hours, I emerged from J’s old room/my new study room, and we readied for lunch at Red Robin..yum!

I allowed myself to have the cheeseburger but skipped the beer. I still needed to get my 1 mile run in and having a beer threatened that goal from becoming a reality. It’s freakin’ out here today, my car thermostat is registering at 112*!!  Yikes.  Beer + Stupid Hot Temps = A Good Excuse Not to Run!

But alas, running prevailed and as soon as we were home, I went out for my 1 mile run.  That was torture. I had no random thoughts because…all I could think about was not dying of heat exhaustion!

After some cooling off, I dragged K back out in to the heat to get some ice cream!

Wow, I’ve consumed far too many calories in the past 24 hours!

I hope you’ve had a great weekend and have enjoyed your Father’s Day!  I especially wish these two great Dad’s in my life the Happiest Father’s Day!!  I love you both!