Dear Diary..

Yesterday, thanks to you lovely readers, I felt inspired to go for my “normal Wednesday” run.  Even though it was super hot outside, at 6 p.m., it felt so good to do my run!  Now the trick will be getting up early tomorrow morning to do my 45 minute Friday run.  And even trickier on Saturday to get up and do my 8 mile run.  But let’s take this one day at a time, shall we?

This morning, after I dropped D off at school and was showered with good-bye hugs and kisses, I made my way to Starbucks.  I decided that since I felt so much better yesterday morning, after my hour long Starbucks visit, I should go ahead and do that again today.  No, I should not be spending money on frivolous things like coffee.  Except, I decided I’m not going to look at it as spending $2.78 on coffee, instead, I spent $2.78 on my mental health!  That 1 hour at Starbucks yesterday somehow motivated me to come home and take care of some stuff I’ve seriously neglected.  I blogged, applied for some jobs, did some laundry, started dinner, did homework with D, finished preparing dinner, and got my run done.  I’d say $2.78 was worth it!

Today I went to Starbucks with my journal.


Yes, I’m a grown woman with a cartoon character on my journal.  It’s what makes me…me!

Prior to today, my last attempt to write in my journal was May 12, 2012.  All that I wrote on that date was..the date.  Nice work!  So I had a lot of catching up to do.  A lot has happened this summer: J graduated and moved to Ohio, D went on her first solo trip, I lost my job…

I’ve been journaling (new word, I just made it up) consistently since January 1, 1994.  It has always been an outlet for me, much like running has become. It is a way to make sense of the world happening around me.  Or a way to vent without burdening another person.  Here are some good reasons for keeping a journal:

  • Clarify your thoughts and feelings. Do you ever seem all jumbled up inside, unsure of what you want or feel? Taking a few minutes to jot down your thoughts and emotions (no editing!) will quickly get you in touch with your internal world.
  • Know yourself better. By writing routinely you will get to know what makes you feel happy and confident. You will also become clear about situations and people who are toxic for you — important information for your emotional well-being.
  • Reduce stress. Writing about anger, sadness and other painful emotions helps to release the intensity of these feelings. By doing so you will feel calmer and better able to stay in the present.
  • Solve problems more effectively. Typically we problem solve from a left-brained, analytical perspective. But sometimes the answer can only be found by engaging right-brained creativity and intuition. Writing unlocks these other capabilities, and affords the opportunity for unexpected solutions to seemingly unsolvable problems.
  • Resolve disagreements with others. Writing about misunderstandings rather than stewing over them will help you to understand another’s point of view. And you just may come up with a sensible resolution to the conflict


It’s also nice for having my journals for historical purposes.  There have been times I’ve had to refer to my journal to determine when a certain event took place.  There have also been times where I’ve read through past journals and learned of my own growth and development.

I can write in my journal what I cannot say out loud and that is so freeing because it gets the words out of my head and clears my mind.

I wrote 10 pages today…man, I had a LOT to get out of my head.  And I feel SO much better now that the words are out of my head and in my journal!  It’s important to remember that mental health is just as important as physical health!

BTW, just so you know, I don’t start my journal entries with “Dear Diary…” that would be way sillier than being a 37 year old woman showing up to Starbucks with a journal that has Jessie from Toy Story on the cover!

Oh!  One last thing.  Since it’s “weigh in Thursday”.  Today’s weight was 173.2  I lost .6 from last week but I’ll take it!

Do you keep a journal?

What do you order at Starbucks/the coffee shop?


Last night, D, K and I went out for another training run.  K said his legs were super sore from Sunday’s run and I realized we failed to do what you really should do after a run – stretch!  Whoops.  We’ll chalk that up as a “fail” for this impostor “Running Coach”.

Our run went very well.  The weather was nice..for Phoenix in July.  We did Week 2 Day 2 of the Ease Into 5k, the routine consisted of a 5 minute warm up walk and then:

  • Run 45 seconds
  • Walk 60 seconds
  • Run 60 seconds
  • Walk 90 seconds
  • Run 90 seconds
  • Walk 2 minutes

We repeated that 3 times and finished with a 5 minute cool down walk.  We completed 2.21 miles in 33:54 minutes, a 15:20 pace. D did much better this run – no crying or whining.  She actually seemed pretty happy!  K was very quiet but he’s a trooper, running nonstop for 90 seconds is no joke and he did excellent.  Very proud of both of them.

For the Disneyland Family Fun Run 5k we must maintain a 16 minute per mile pace or we risk being swept.  I think we’ll be fine but I may have to sit down with D and determine which characters along the route she will insist on posing for pictures with and which ones we can skip.  I think I know her pretty well and can guess that Buzz Lightyear and Woody will be a  “must do”!

These were taken in 2008 and she’s still a huge, huge fan.  In fact, when I ran the Tinker Bell half marathon with M in January, Buzz and Woody were the only characters I said I would stop for!

After we were home from our run, I lead the team in some stretching moves.  It cracked me up to stand in front of them and lead them like we were in a class or something.

I’ve been absent from blog writing and reading mostly because I suck and have become so consumed in my stress.  I know that sounds awful but it’s the truth.  I don’t want this blog to turn in to my whining about being unemployed, that’s boring and unproductive!  I haven’t kept to my personal running schedule but I have managed to stick to the 1 mile per day challenge.

After I dropped D off at school this morning I dreaded going home to sit and be alone with my thoughts for hours on end.  I decided to swing by Starbucks.  I ordered a coffee and just sat in the shop for an hour listening to the hustle and bustle of people.

I bet people thought I was crazy for taking a picture of these flowers but daisies are my favorite and I thought they were pretty!

Even if they are fake!

Starbucks was a great distraction from being alone in my head – which is absolutely dangerous at this junction.  I’ve determined that’s also probably why I’m not motivated to do my longer runs – I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts right now.  I do need to force myself to get back out there and run my longer distances because my next half marathon is in 1 month.  *Gulp!*

Who is your favorite Disney character?

Are you running the Disneyland half marathon this year?

Are you drinking your recommended daily water?  (I’m not…need to get back on that!)